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THE RITALIN DABBLER

Music graduate

I have tried Ritalin a couple of times. I heard about people using it in America, and I was given some by an American friend who was going to throw them away. Each time I tried Ritalin it was for composing through the night for a deadline the next morning.

I tried it because I was having problems sitting down and doing the work, often getting easily distracted before important deadlines. I needed something to help me concentrate. I only had one or two pills each time, not knowing much about recommended dosage. The first time I did notice a beneficial effect, and wrote a substantial amount. I was able to concentrate a little better, moving more quickly on to the next bar of music, rather than focusing on the previous, tinkering with it, wondering how it could be improved and reflecting upon the piece as a whole.


Whether or not this altered process reflected a more efficient style of working, or merely impeded my own critical faculties, producing more work of a lower quality, I cannot say. The music I wrote was not particularly good or bad, but it was adequate for the next day’s supervision.

The second time I tried it, a few months later, I noticed no positive effect at all. I was more tired that night anyway, and didn’t stick with it for long - I ended up going to bed not having done much. This second experience made me re-assess the first; perhaps it hadn’t had that much effect after all. I was the kind of student who worked in short, concentrated bursts followed by long periods of inactivity anyway, so staying up all night to produce two weeks’ work, as I had done the first time, was not that out of the ordinary.

It is certainly possible that the beneficial effect I noticed was more placebo than anything else. Anyway, having used up what I had, I decided not to get any more, and

trusted in the old staples of coffee and cigarettes during exam term.


Posted on Friday 16 November 2007